Tuesday, October 16, 2007

footsong

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm starin' at my feet
my cheeks are turnin red
I'm searchin' for the words
inside my head
I'm feelin' nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cuz i know yur worth it
Yur worth it yeah
If i could say what i wanna say
I'd say i want blow you...
AWAY
Be with u every night
Am i squeezing u too tight?
If i could say what i wanna see
I wanna see u go down...on one knee
Marry me today
Guess i'm wishing my life away
With these things i'll never say
It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to u
whats on my mind
If it ain't comin out
we're not goin anywhere
So why can't i just tell u that i care
Cuz im feelin nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cuz i know yur worth it
If i could say what i wanna say
I'd say i want blow you...
AWAY
Be with u every night
Am i squeezing u too tight?

If i could say what i wanna see
I wanna see u go down...on one knee
Marry me today
Guess i'm wishing my life away
With these things i'll never say
What is wrong with my tounge?
these words keep slippin away
I stutter
I stumble like
i've got nothin to say
Things I'll Never Say
Avril Lavigne

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

smooches

i am listening to MASAYA by bamboo. you know that song? well i just figured that faling in love is complicated really. i mean you wouldnt understand what it really meant until you experienced it yourself. as one of my prof said, nobody is expert about pain but the person experiencing it.
well back to the song, it reminds me of the younger years when i was less smarter and more fragile and more vulnerable, time when i had to smoke and get drunk just to express that i am hurt. i am smiling now bcoz i realized that i actually did some foolish things just to get even bcoz i was dumped. OMG! i was dumped! ahahahaha. that's cool. atleast i was dumped. coem to think of it i dumped someone too, well i guess we're even.
i did not cry when that guy dumped me. i did not laugh though.
how many times did i fall in love? countless.
how many times did i find love? countless.
how many times did love find me? once.
i may never be able to say this ever again.
"to my guy, thank you for finding me. thank you for completing me.thank you for giving the right reasons to live and be happy. thank you for saving me."
in a million years, i hope that i could give back what love has given me...
a beautiful life.
true enough, "ang pag-ibig, masaya"